11 Months

Baby Tim is 11 mths old now.
Here is a quick update.

Taken on 12th Sept
Weight = 8.7Kg
Height =75cm
Teeth = 2 pearly whites on the lower incisor

Adaptability

Times flies ....
I have been working in "I" for 3 months already. I always made a statement that "I" is not the place for me as the culture there is totally not my style. This is proven when I attended a soft skills class to which it help individuals understand their styles and that of their team mates. From the survey questions one will get to know their Adapted Style and also Natural Style approach. Those who is having a different which is more than 35 between the 2 style is said to be under "EXTREME" pressure which is unhealthy. I am one of those who is under extreme pressure :P
In order to be able to survive in "I" i unconsciously change my personality but i view it from a positive angle as I am "Changing for the good" :)

Mind the GAP

Lately the gap between me and hubby is getting bigger and bigger. Maybe I should rephrase .... the different between us is poping out more and more. We are actually 2 person with veryX5 different personality. Our expectation and goals for life is like heaven and earth.
Things is getting worst lately after we had baby Tim. The way I plan to bring up my son is no wear close to what he have in mind. I believe that kids should be brought up with extra care and shower with lots lots of attention and love. But he think there is no need to go until that extend, just care for him like normal and he will grow up as well. He is someone who had experience studying and living in foreign land. How can he still have those "kolot" thinking of a china "apek" on how to take care of children.
Baby Tim is now taken care by my mom during my working hour. My mom is the person who i trust that will be able to take good care of my baby boy both physically and mentally. He is not happy about it as he wanted his mother to take care of baby tim instead. That will never happen as i don't agree with the ways MIL take care of baby, as like mother like son, MIL also having the same "cin cai" attitude when taking care of baby. We do bring baby tim back to MIL place during weekend for visit but hubby is still not happy as he said why can't i have enough trust towards MIL to leave baby tim with her 1 or 2 days. It's not that I bias towards my mom but just that we are having different standard and expectation.
Can't foresee any solutions for this issue in the near future. Haih ...... just leave it as it is for now. See how things goes from here ....
End of the sad part, now it's time for happy news. I have realize one of my resolution for 2008. I am now back for good to home sweet home. Now I get to see Baby Tim everyday ...yippie :)

New Year’s Resolution

Time flies … the first month of 2008 is already half gone. Even though it’s a bit late I guess I should also have a new year’s resolution. This year is going to be a tuff year for me as I’m still here while baby Tim (who I miss dearly) and the rest of the family are still back in hometown. Here goes…

1) Must decide whether will remain here or will go back to hometown. The main goal is to stay close to baby Tim :) If possible I don’t wanna miss out a single day of him growing up. Really hope that I will be able to settle down ASAP and no need to travel so often back to home town as it’s really tiring :(
2) Wanna shed of those extra pounds I have gain during pregnancy so that I can fit back to my nice nice Levi’s jeans and also those mini “T” :)

I’m simple who only wish for a simple life. So there will only be 2 resolution for me this year. Hopefully I will be able to achieve it.
Gambateh !!!

Timothy

Timothy -- 峻湶 came to us on October 12, 2007 at 1.22pm.
He came as a surprise as we wasn't expecting him for another 6 weeks.
It was just a regular check up but ended up being diagnose with pre-eclampsia and having a BP of 180/110. The BP was way to high and I was scheduled to have a c-section later in the afternoon once the gynae can bring the BP down to 130/90 with the help of medication eventhough Xiao B is still premature. If i were to get seizures then it would have been bad for both of us.
Luckily we are bless and eveything turn out to be fine. Xiao B is able to breath on his own even though he is having difficulty to be feed from the bottle and had to be feed by using a tube instead.Both of us stay in the hospital for about a week. I was allowed to go home when my BP went down to about 120/90. Xiao B came back 2 days after.
It has been 3 mths since and thank GOD that everthing is in good hand now.

A Name ....

Lately I have been thinking a lot for the most suitable name for Xiao B.
At the end the list is down to 2 ...
1 ) Isaac
2 ) Timothy
The christian name part is not that tuff. The most head ache part is the part to get the chinese name. At first I plan to name Xiao B 凯杰 as this 2 word have always been my favourite :) But later found out that there is already someone with this name at Xiao B's dad side of family. So after "N" times of pushing,nagging and demanding Xiao B dad finally came up with 宇?. But up until now we can't seems to be able to decide. But we have shortlisted a few ...
1) 轩
2) 旋
3) 翔
Decision ...decision ...decision
Xiao B dad seems to think that we should name Xiao B after he is born so that those "master" can calculate his name base on his time of birth but i don't really buy that :P For me a person are in control of his own life of course with guidance from the Lord :D
Will leave it as it is for now since we can't really make a decision. As what I keep on telling my self lately, since i can't do anything about it now i might as well enjoy what i have now. "Enjoy work, Enjoy pregnancy" :D
As per the gynae Xiao B haven't turn his head yet and I'm a bit worried. Pray that eveything will be fine :)

回家真好

上个周末.. 我,妹与 Xiao B 回家去了 :)
回家的感觉真好,吃得饱,睡得好。与家人共享天伦之乐。我也带Xiao B 去参与主的盛宴。希望Xiao B会感受到主对我们的爱。
星期六， 一大早我,Xiao B与他爸 就的到Gynaecologist 那儿因Xiao B 是时候近行检察了。等了将近三个小时才轮到我们，真是要命。人人都想为家里添“小金猪“的原故吧！我也做了Blood Test。Gynae也建意我们做多一个checking for Down Syndrome baby。但Xiao B他爸 说不须要，因不论结果是如何，Xiao B 还得来这世界。请天主保佑，Xiao B 健健康康！！
虽然在踏上来 K.L 的路程前，出了一些小拆曲。但all is good :)
Thank you GOD for all the blessing.

天下没有不散的宴席

最近好多人路路续续的离开工司， 其中也包过了一位我最谈得来的同事。真的有点伤感， 丧气。
但我还不能离开，因为我有了小B。我也准备在小B诞生后就打包回家乡，因为对工作已失去了当初的热诚与期望。虽然因而失业的可能性非常高,但家永远是最温暖,安全 。
我好想念我的家 ！！
希望接下来的几个月会过的快快的 :)

情绪不稳定

常会在电视剧里看到女主角们生bb 前后都会面对一些的情绪问题。现在我真的体会到了。最近我会为了一些小事情就失控的哭起来。
目前我人在他乡，小B 爸爸又不在身边，居住环境又不理想。一想到每个周末要待在那有如烤炉般炎热的屋子里，眼泪就会不受控自的流下来。
虽然不清楚如何，但希望会有好转。

Promotion

我们全家上上下下每一个人都会有 "Promotion" .... 因为我怀孕了 :)
好期待新家庭会员的到来。

Stagnant

Lately I’m in a very depressing mood. No matter how I tried to cheer my self up nothing seems to be working. Everything seems to be stagnant for me now, career, married life, etc …. I am going no where, keep on circling the round about for like “n” times already. I do like my job a lot, but since I’m someone who is very quite and mostly keep everything to my self it’s very understandable that no one really notice me. I keep on getting the same old task over and over again and when ever there is anything new surely my name will not be in the list.
“You must speak up, take part in discussion, make your self visible to every body” … this is what my boss ask of me during last review. I agreed with it and am trying my best to work toward it but end up in disappointment. When I tried to speak up , discuss issue with the boss he don’t really seems to really pay attention to what I’m saying. What annoy me the most is I’m the one who work on the thing but he don’t want to ask me directly about it but instead go and ask some one else. That some one end up asking me in the end then report it to the “BOSS”.

“Why” …”Why” …. “Why” wouldn’t you listen when I tried to explain the whole picture to you. “Why” … “Why” … “Why” you end up asking others what I plan to explain to you in the first place.

Well I guess no one point trying so hard when no one going to notice it. I will just stick to what ever is assign to me and not anything extra. If the “BOSS” dare to comment that I don’t speak up or take part anymore in the next review. The “BOSS” is so going to get it.
I guess more trip to JobStreet for me now. Hopefully I will be able to get my ass out of here ASAP. I have totally loss hope with this job of mine already ……..

Start of a new "Chapter"

I just completed my wedding on Nov 26th and now starting a new chapter of my life.
Everything is done with now and we are now back to out normal life. No more worrying on the sitting arrangement, who to invite, what time to wake to for make up ..blah blah
Although the wedding is no like those fairy tales type wedding which we normally see in movies and TVs and it actually did screw up a bit for the dinner part but overall we enjoy it :)
My life have kinda come to still right now. Without having a clear direction on what i wanted to do and what i wanted to achive in the future. All i have now in life is work without the passion, gym (luckily still got things which i wanted to achieve), movies series :P My life now is basically waking up in the morning, rush to work, suffer through the 8 hrs, after work gym, reach home, eat while watching series till late night then waking up in the morning feeling tired for not having enough sleep the night before.
Life is "sien" but i know that things will become better :D

"Suiness" .....

I guess everyone also have the experience where everything just don't seems to go as per plan for you, which we hokkien called as "SUI".
Well i happen to be having the period of "Suiness" right now. Bad things just keep on coming my way but never mind i will face it with "courage". As i strongly believe in the chinese saying of "雨过天晴“ :D

Sex ?? Before ?? Marriage ??

"Sensitive" ... "Avoid" ... this is the 2 words that come across my mind when "SEX BEFORE MARRAIGE" is in the discussion.
What can be worst when this question is direct to you by a priest !!! I went through that yesterday and I still haven't fully recovered from it till now.
I told the truth. Maybe I should have lied instead, but no, I choose to to tell the truth. Being honest and brave at the wrong timing. I was then directed with another question " So that will you do if you got pregnant?". Straight away I answered with a firm and loud voice " Gave birth to my baby of course. As both me and my fiancee are financially and mentally prepare to be parents. We are also a legal couple according to the law thus our baby is also legal as we have already registered." The priest then gave me a blank stare in return. I get dissapointed face + need to go for confession + no holy communion + no "S??" until our marriage by end of this year.
To tell the truth I don't really think that I had did anything that bad. As long as I am mature enough to be responsible for every act that I took and am fully aware of the consequences, then it should be okay.
But still I have to go by the rules from now on as I am the one who choose to have a church marriage. It did cross my mind to not go ahead with it but if I choose to do so then I will really ended up hurting some one heart. Which I really don't want to do so .....
Have I really did something that BAD ??? Am I really that sinful ???

Finally ....

过去的好几个月，习惯了有时间时就阅读他人的blog。
While reading though those blogs you are able to put your self in others shoes to view things from their point of view. It's kinda like following the hong kong series day by day.
So 我决定要有一部以我为女主角的drama series,so today i shall have a blog of my own .........

I gave up … I gave up …. I have been struggling to write the upper part of this post in Chinese. Ai …sad my chinese is still as bad as the time I’m in secondary. Well the sad thing is my English is also not that good ……

I plan to have my blog URL to be the same as my name but not available anymore. So I try dozen of other names which I feel cool :P like The sea, The Sky , Just Me but to no avail. I even try them in French. At last I tried my luck by translating my name to French and it come out as “JuinJuin”. Errrr … it’s a bit weird and not cool at all but that will do