Lately I’m in a very depressing mood. No matter how I tried to cheer my self up nothing seems to be working. Everything seems to be stagnant for me now, career, married life, etc …. I am going no where, keep on circling the round about for like “n” times already. I do like my job a lot, but since I’m someone who is very quite and mostly keep everything to my self it’s very understandable that no one really notice me. I keep on getting the same old task over and over again and when ever there is anything new surely my name will not be in the list.
“You must speak up, take part in discussion, make your self visible to every body” … this is what my boss ask of me during last review. I agreed with it and am trying my best to work toward it but end up in disappointment. When I tried to speak up , discuss issue with the boss he don’t really seems to really pay attention to what I’m saying. What annoy me the most is I’m the one who work on the thing but he don’t want to ask me directly about it but instead go and ask some one else. That some one end up asking me in the end then report it to the “BOSS”.
“Why” …”Why” …. “Why” wouldn’t you listen when I tried to explain the whole picture to you. “Why” … “Why” … “Why” you end up asking others what I plan to explain to you in the first place.
Well I guess no one point trying so hard when no one going to notice it. I will just stick to what ever is assign to me and not anything extra. If the “BOSS” dare to comment that I don’t speak up or take part anymore in the next review. The “BOSS” is so going to get it.
I guess more trip to JobStreet for me now. Hopefully I will be able to get my ass out of here ASAP. I have totally loss hope with this job of mine already ……..
